January 12, 2012

Film photos

stop sign
I fell in love with photography when I developed my first film photo. Sounding rather anti-climatic, it was a photo of a fence. Though, I always loved seeing the intricate pattern being more focused than the background. Sure, I have been taking photos during the past year for yearbook but film photography that made me want my own slr film camera. Film photography forces you to understand how every function in a camera works. You can't rely solely on automatic. You had to remember everything--what type of film you were using and as well as the light. You only get one chance to capture the moment... Now that's magical.
trees parking
Despite all my talk, I have yet to buy a slr film camera. I have been using a point and shoot. I have been eyeing this one Minolta. But, I don't know. it seems like I don't really care as much when it comes down to film cameras as I thought.

These two photos (scanned from my crummy scanner) were part of the same roll of film from hiking. I couldn't wait to process the hiking photos, but I also had 5 photos left to take, so I took photos during my walk to Target from the car. These photos, compare to the hiking photos were much better. Unfortunately, they have less significance to me.

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Learning to Fly by Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers

January 11, 2012

Sturtevant Falls Hike--Film

trees on the way to sturtevant Falls
Last Thursday, I went hiking with Andrew, Calvin, Christina, Christine, and Veronica. We hiked to Sturtevant Falls. The waterfall was so pretty. I don't have photos posted here because all my film photos turned out pretty bad. Reminder: ISO 100 means you need a lot of light, Lily!! Instead of beating myself up, I'm seeing this as a learning experience. Though, I really should have known--I took photography class, for goodnesssakes!

On the way to the waterfall, Cola (Christina's dog) got attacked by a pitbull. The owner, Christina and everyone else tried to pry the dogs apart. I just stood there and watched. I'm glad the bystander effect didn't go off during that time. But, the damage was done, Cola had several fractured ribs and was frighten during the rest of the hike. As for the pitbull, he (I'm inferring that the dog was a male) was fine. He and his owner eventually left. After finding out that the owner left, everyone was pretty angry. I felt so bad, because I didn't stop the owner from leaving. I was the closest to him. He stood next to me (well, not next to me, because I was kind of afraid of his dog) awkwardly with his dog for about two minutes, watching Christina nurtured injured Cola (and probably feeling bad). I didn't know there was some proper etiquette of staying and seeing if the dog was fine...so when the dog owner left, I actually said and waved good-bye! (Ahhh, I know! You guys must be so pissed, knowing that I did not stop him!!) So, yes, because I was naive, I didn't know that I should have stopped him from leaving and making him assume responsibility.

Overall, the rest of the hike was fine. We made it to the waterfall without getting excessively wet when crossing the streams (but I did had an almost-fall and got my right shoe slightly wet). However, I was rather disappointed with the hike. I don't know... I kind of assumed that it was going to be a tremendously difficult (and tiring) hike. So, when we arrived to the waterfall, I found it rather anti-climatic. Though, on the way back, it was tiring. My right shin was hurting (like Christina and Christine! Ahhh, the consequence of doing cross country). We mostly went uphill, so I kept catching my breath (and walking super slow). I have other awesome (okay, I'm exaggerating) digital photos from the hike. I will definitely upload those photos soon.

Honestly, I need a better scanner. That's what happens when you use an all-in-one copier/scanner/printer.
road trip
Stuck the camera out during the car ride.
Christine Calvin
Christine (holding Cola) and Calvin
calvin driving
Calvin being super spiffy and driving; Rather terrifying because we on the edge of mountain.
trees


Rescue by Seabird

January 10, 2012

Disappointment

I saw one my psychology professors on campus while working today. Odd how I've seen two of my professors on campus, especially since most professors don't work/come to campus during winter intersession unless they need to. It was my computer apps in statistics psych professor.

I thought he was a random student smoking in front of a building. Approaching him, I realized that it was my professor, wearing his fitted v-neck, skinny jeans, and vans--the typical hipster-attire of my homosexual psychology professor (who also looks like Zachary Quinto). I wanted to turn the other way when I realized that it was him because I did poorly in that class. I got a B in the class, but deserved a F. Though, it felt like I learned so much in the class, research-wise, but when I took the exam, I couldn't apply anything I learned to the exam. It was horrible.

So, when he noticed me and waved me over, I maintained a 6 feet distance away from him (but eventually got closer). We talked a bit. As with my other professor last week, I talked about my future adventures to South Korea (seriously, everyone is going to get tired of hearing about my intentions). Near the end of the conversation, I made an excuse to leave.

BUT, I don't know why I did this, I turned around and asked whether he was teaching next semester again (in addition to his research job on campus). He said he was teaching computer stats again. Feeling guilty at the moment, I apologized for doing so poorly in the class. I wanted to do well to prove that I had a possible future in stats, but I couldn't apply it in the exam for some reason. He said it was okay and that I probably didn't do that badly because no one failed and despite the disappointment, he had faith that we all learned. And he found this teaching experience as a learning experience--he planned on trying a different method in teaching. Maybe then, students will understand more.

So, seeing him made me really sad. It made me think about how incompetent I feel. Why do I expect so much in me when I can't even understand statistic outputs? Why am I even considering market research right now, especially with so much statistics involved? Why?

I know... so much self-pity and doubt. As a person, I should be grateful for everything, but I can't help but feel so much of this... I'll get over it soon. I just dwell myself in a little of guilt. It's kind of my coping mechanism...

Comptine d'un Autre Été by Yann Tiersen

January 3, 2012

Just Another Tuesday at Work

Just saw one of my Advertising Writing professors today as I left work during my lunch break and was very excited! I was practically gushing! I know, I am easily enthused. Truthfully, I was rather hesitant to speak with her because she, like many professors, intimidate me. But, the conversation went really well--probably because she's no longer my professor so I don't have to fear her enough to break down. Near the end of the conversation, I told her that I was going to study abroad to South Korea and her reaction surprised me. She hugged (!!) me and said, "I am very excited for you!" Then she said, "Make a blog and post all your photos there and send me the link so I can follow you there."

It's weird, I don't really want to show many people that I know THIS blog. Maybe I will create a new one just for Korea. But, I should just suck it up and let people know of this one because this has always been the one that I intended to show others in the future. BUT, I also don't want everyone to read my complaints about life... Ahhh! I'll decide later.

Anyhow, it is odd how I appreciate my Communications professors more than my Psychology professors. I feel like a changed and motivated person after each and every Communications course. As for Psychology courses, I don't really like most of them--probably because they're all research oriented (which is a stupid excuse because I have intentions of getting into research). I feel like I should appreciate my dominant major more than my second major...

January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!


Guess what? It's 2012! How did everyone spend their New Years? Watching the ball drop from Time Square? Going to a party? Hanging out with the family? I was going to stay with my family, watching crappy Chinese television concerts and laughing at old Chinese singers. BUT, my plans changed when Christina and Calvin asked me to come over and celebrate. Truthfully, I was hesitant going over there because I have been feeling uncomfortable when hanging out during our prior meet-ups. But, my parents were okay with it, as long as someone else drove (guess they still think I'm accident-prone).

Basically spent my New Years at Calvin's watching the ball drop in Time Square on TV and watching Bridesmaids. Oh, and almost finishing off a bottle of strawberry flavoured wine (wine will eventually taste better when I get older, right? So far, I hate the acidic taste in my mouth from the prior drinks we had)-- with maybe 8 ounces of wine left (I had to bring the bottle home). As dull as this New Years celebration is, I thought it went okay. :)

Getting to the point, which I went off-course, it's odd how a new year signifies change. We make all these plans to change as a person. Well, at least I used to write down what I wanted to change. One thing I wanted to do was appreciate everything and everyone more. I am pretty selfish and expect a lot out of people without reciprocating. At the same time, I want to be less of a pushover. Sounds kind of conflicting--how can I be a pushover but at the same time a user? Well, we all know there are shades of grey. There's more I want to say on this subject, but I'm going to leave this topic unfinished.

I'll just end this post here and say Happy New Year! I'm anticipating a good year. I hope you all will feel content and fulfilled this year.