Despite the fact that I am really scared of the future (because it can get worse), I'm going to try and live. I know this sounds so cliche, but really. Also, I'm still going to try and study abroad. I just need to send the letters to my professors! I am going to try and maintain a healthier diet. The doctor said that a factor of what I'm going through may be because of my diet--the lack of exercise and carelessly eating certain foods.
Anyway, I feel much better just because I wrote this down but I don't think I'm going to talk about it. It seems rather stupid that I would write about it and not expect questions, but I honestly think I will go through a whole turmoil of emotions if I have to talk about the whole ordeal.